two hours left before my chicha, wanna some harm…feeling bored; bored of sitting on the same place for the last 5 min, bored of writing this post …just bored… had a lot to do but chosen to do fuck all today, seen what a holiday look like and found a may like it…never been so lazy even trying hard to not be…isn’t me!…missing my girl…it may be a relief to write …i’ll keep on..may take time to see a change…wanna sleep and get blacked out …wanna relax…have a laugh and a chichha…i may order a tea; a green one…am thinking of a book i read yesterday…i need to finish it by today…shall i go for my jogging….been awake last night and been on bad mood all the day along…becoming more frequent lately..don’t know what to do…tried everything, but none worked…hate doctors…i may got back to my pills even though …read my article again and felt……..may need some excitements…routine is killing me…it is not stress or tiredness… don’t know….

During my jogging this afternoon, I kept chewing on some thoughts in mind about “personnel satisfaction” , so thought why not sharing the opinion and here I am scribbling down this few lines . Am I satisfied? What would satisfy me? Or what would satisfy me more, still if I do feel satisfied? I believe at least once on a time you have asked yourself that question. Might be on a slightly different way to sound like “Am I happy” , so does  happiness mean satisfaction !? Don’t know….emh, same meaning..Can’t see any difference. The Chicken or the Egg!?  I believe if am satisfied, I would say am happy. I see myself using “if” which logically would tell that am not satisfied. What I may lack of to feel so! What people would compute, evaluate or put figure on so they come up with an honest answer. Is it the traditional equation of money, power, fame and love!? Ok don’t look for fame, want enough money to live a decent life and get all I may want having, believe that power is useless and love is something that we may pass by , so all in all that’s not the right equation. I believe a person may not reach satisfaction…like 100%- no discount-but would be happy if he succeeds to reaching some of the goals and life milestones he did put on. Am just denying myself , sorry for the confusion. Why am saying he’ll not be fully satisfied? Frankly speaking, I always put high expectations on myself and this sometimes makes life damn thorny;  cause u’re struggling to show up at all levels, to do ur best, to give and give so u can surmount obstacles and head to the top (not just professionally) but u do not always get where u want. The road is long and full of surprises. It’s always challenging and certainly gives meaning to life. But shall we low down our self expectations to eventually get there, up to satisfaction. Definitely not ! I rather prefer to not be fully satisfied then seeing my life expectations heading down.

I did get out. More than 6 months without a damn fag!! Why can’t u !? It’s always time to say enough is enough. Get rid off!!

Last month a B737 had a mid air collision with a Embraer Legacy while cruising at 35,000 feet over South America.  The Embraer Legacy, though seriously damaged, with the winglet ripped off, managed to make a landing at a nearby airstrip in the midst of the Amazon jungle. The crew and passengers of the Embraer Legacy had no idea what they had hit. The B737, however, crashed killing all crew and passengers on board.  The two photos below were apparently taken by one of the passengers in the B737, after the collision and before the aircraft crashed.  The photos were retrieved from a camera’s memory stick You will never get to see photos like this.  In the first photo there is a gaping hole in the fuselage through which you can see the tailplane and vertical fin of the aircraft. In the second photo one of the passengers is being sucked out of the gaping hole.

I’ll throw away my engine and fit in place one of these V10s…who’d wanna race.

Tunisian’s HIV and AIDS statistics and features, in 2003 and 2005

AIDS estimated deaths  2001   2003   2005
(Number of people)        200     200      >200

“Tunisia’s epidemic appears to be relatively stable, though an observed increase in risk situations could cause this to change. Sex work is believed to be on the rise, while injecting drug use, though still very limited, appears also to be gaining ground. Since young people in particular have poor HIV knowledge and limited access to condoms, such trends could put them at risk of acquiring HIV.” according to UNAIDS